UGH

[Michelle]

Why is it that when we think we can be strong we cant??
Im currently half way across the US from my family and i thought that i would be able to handle it and whatever.....well turns out i cant. And everytime i bring up moving back up north my boyfriend freaks out on me and give me this foever long lecture about how hes been away from his family for 5 years in the service and now he wants to be by his family. I cant stand it here. This town suck its so small and there is nothing to do. Housing is so much more here than where im from (chicago) and thats pretty bad. His mom and stepdad and complet jerks or whatever you want to call them and i just cant take it anymore. His mom is so flip floppy on wanting to be in this childs life, i mean why start now its not like she was ever there for her child., his step dad is jsut the biggest jjerk around and i dont want him within 500 feet of the child. The only ones that support this child are his grandparents (whom raised him). I just dont know what to do anymore and jsut needed to get somethings off my chest.
Also turns out the doctor i thinking about starting me on treatment for post-pardum depression (and im only 22 weeks). Also its a boy, we finally found out.
thanks for listening to me complain :)